1 John 1:5 This is the message we have heard from him and declare to you: God is light; in him there is no darkness at all. 6 If we claim to have fellowship with him and yet walk in the darkness, we lie and do not live out the truth. 7 But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all sin...

A different and touchy subject I'm going to share with you... That is Total, Unrelenting Honesty in where we are as Christians and also as it applies to unbelievers. Within most hearts of man/woman there is something that is secret and we may not feel at liberty to talk about it. It may be some experience from the past? Or something that we are not wanting to let go of? Possibly something that makes us feel guilty and full of shame? The scripture above tells us in vs 6. If we claim to have fellowship with him and yet walk in the darkness, we lie and do not live out the truth.. 

So if we're Christians, True followers of Jesus, then we live out the truth. We walk in righteousness, integrity and are IN THE LIGHT!! Meaning we are close to God, we sense Him within, we hear His voice and are in deep fellowship with Him. When I was small I used to play a game called "Hide and Seek", but the game was more interesting when played In the Dark. One team would hide and the other team would come and try and find you with torches. When they found you then you were out the game. There is a lot of stuff we can cover up in the darkness of our God given hearts and actually think "its safe, nobody will find it because its hidden" but we only fool ourselves or our brothers or sisters in Christ. However we can not fool God because He sees into our hearts. He sees the things that are not right in there, but the amazing thing is when He shines His light into our hearts and exposes what ain't right then we are NOT out the Game! There's mercy and forgiveness We must confess these struggles, secrets or even sin with our trusted Brother's/Sisters in Christ.. We must be open and honest about where we are in Christ! This is a painful thing but brings a lot of freedom! Especially from deceit and lies that comes from the Devil. I've only just come out of the dark recently and this is what happened. 

A while ago I had to undergo 6 biopsies of the bowels, and the doctor decide to put me on strong painkillers called Tramadol, which are highly addictive and can just numb your senses and space you out. The thing is, I was becoming more and more addicted to these tablets. I was unaware of the folk around me who saw the state I was getting myself into and became concerned for my health. I can remember one brother speaking into my heart saying "Mark can I just say you look very spaced out, have you been taking anything?" And I lied to him and said No. Then another sister came and told me the same thing a few days later and I lied to her too because I was not in the light, I was doing Satan's work. I didn't realize how much I was hurting people with my lifestyle and words. I was so happy to be in the dark, until quite recently. My wife called me from India and sent me some photos of a baby in her womb that is healthy. Even though she had tests done here in the UK, the doctors told her that all the morning sickness was just stress and to take it easy. She flew to see her family in India then underwent more tests, and the doctors over there said she was 12 week pregnant! God just totally humbled me with this news and I must tell you it brought me into a state of shock but also reality!! Do I want to stay in the dark? Or do I come into the light and confess all my shameful deeds to my brethren here and be blessed with a healthy child along with my beautiful wife? So this left we with No option but to first tell the Doctors to take me off the Tramadol as I will not take another. The Doctors face was in shock but did as I said. Then I one by one confessed my faults to my brothers/sisters I sinned against. This experience was like a weight being not just lifted from my shoulders but from within!! Even when I was taking these painkillers my wife was faithfully praying for me to be open about these things. Then eventually told me "Darling please be honest to others of what's going on inside of you, I know about the painkillers... Just be real with yourself" I thank God that He has blessed me with such an amazing and patient wife and for His mercy and promises of the scripture above! Its better for us to be real about where we are in Christ, allowing Him to wash us clean and free from our Sins!

He's calling us into deeper fellowship and relationships with Him and each other. Be free from the web of deceit and lies. Let your sins be cleansed from you. If you don't know God what do you have to lose by simply calling out from the depths of your heart "God I need you more than these things I carry inside, wash me, cleanse me, purify my heart, help me to find someone who I can be true to about what's going on inside of me." God has a purpose for your life brother/sister. How do you know He ain't real if you haven't reached into His light and allowed Him to pull you out of the mess that you may be in?? Call on His name. He's waiting to hear your voice. Let go of that shame and guilt. Fall into the loving merciful hands of God!

We can do a lot of Gods work with a heart that's unclean but what does that bring to Him? It certainly doesn't glorify Him, does it? I was even reaching out to the lost under the influence of this medicine and in my state of darkness. I was praying for people and speaking words of knowledge into their hearts, but my heart was filthy!! Openness and Accountability to the Brethren is Vital! That's how the light of God shines through our hearts. That's how we become as Jesus says in Matthew 5:14 You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden.


Mark Bl4zing is an english bulldog of a blogger and Recruiting Manager for OmniGod Music